and it continues....

The horrible nights that is.  Saturday was our best one, she woke up twice but was able to get herself back to sleep so I didn't have to actually get up outta bed but was awake non the less.  Last night was by far the worst.  She woke up at 230am and couldn't get herself back to sleep so I stumbled in there and we rocked and we swayed and we sang and we talked and over an hour later she was out.  In the crib she goes and she stays asleep, finally I think.  Nope, for 10 glorious minutes it was quiet.  Then the crying started again.  This time it took her a good 20 minutes of whining and light crying to get herself back to sleep, but she did do it alone.  Then probably an hour or so later she was up again and then another hour or so later it was repeated.  Finally she slept until 7am.  Needless to say I feel zombie like and it makes me wonder more and more how full time working moms do it.  There is no way I can accept a full time job working 10 hour days and then coming home and being up half the night with her.  Of course I am the only one who can calm her when she is totally out of control so even if Lew was to get up with her some of the time I would end up just laying there waiting for the moment when I would have to take my turn to try and get her settled to the point where she could fall back asleep.  Tomorrow is my interview and even though I want the job 40 hours in 4 days is probably just too much and something that isn't crucial to our well being at this point in time.  However, you never know what will happen.  Maybe they will decide that part time would be an option :) fingers crossed everyone.